It's just all good news...!!!

My other half is much better now. My mum has assured me that it wasn't the chicken as it was in the oven for over an hour and it was chicken legs not a whole one! So I am not feeling quite so guilty!

My weight has gone down by another pound - whoppee!!! Mind you, I am still not managing to eat very comfortably so it hasn't exactly been a painless loss but I'm happy!!

I have a wedding dress consultation on Friday morning - just me and my mum!! It is way too early to make any proper decisions but it will be lovely to try some on and get some ideas. I've never tried a wedding dress on in my life - how exciting!!

I have found out that you can get Wedding trainers (sneakers for any American readers) which will be fantastic - due to my disability I can only wear supportive lace up shoes, nothing dainty and not a hope in hell of wearing any type of heel. I was worrying about what I might wear as I wanted to feel special. We saw some at the wedding fayre but they were a bit plain so I thought I'd do an internet search. It seems that they are very popular in the States so I might either order some nearer the time or even have a bash at decorating some myself.

We also have an appointment to view our first choice venue on 21st April - have to wait that long to get a day when there isn't a wedding on. I have a feeling that it will be too expensive but hey-ho!

Some good news and some not so good news!

The good news is that the weight has stayed down and is even looking like it is flirting with going down even more!! Also, I am wearing a top I bought ages ago but thought was a bit tight - my other half told me it looks fine and he is pretty direct with feedback!

The not so good news is that I may have given him food poisoning by accident. We had a chicken dish from Delia's summer collection last night, it was yummy but he thought the chicken was a bit pink (it had been in the oven for over an hour!). He was fine until after he ate breakfast and has since been sick - he is lying down at the moment - whoops!!!

Finally, some good news!!

After a few difficult food days - which included me throwing my dinner up within 10 minutes - I have managed to lose some weight!! About time, I say!!

My weight has been a little up and down - not much but enough to annoy me! This morning it was down to the lowest so far so I am going to recorded it as encouragement to myself! It is not an easy way to lose it but at least I am seeing some results for my suffering!

I went to my first Wedding Fayre yesterday. It would be so easy to get caught up in the drama of the occasion! My mum couldn't come as they were away for the weekend so I went with my boyfriend's mum. My mum said she didn't mind but when I told her about it last night (after she asked me!) she really annoyed me. I mentioned that I tried on some tiaras. She seemed a bit taken back and then commented that she thought I was going for the sophisticated look and wasn't I a bit old for that!!! I know I am 44 but I look young for my age and this is my first and only wedding so I want to look special - was I a bit over sensitive to cry when I put the phone down?!! It didn't help when five minutes later in discussion about wedding dresses with my boyfriend - I mentioned that I didn't really want a sleeveless/strapless dress (all you seem to see now are bodice type dresses) as I have a thing about my bingo wings - he said well you can always have a shawl...!!! I now think everyone must see me as an old granny who shouldn't wear a tiara and needs to wrap up in a shawl (I'm imagining something crotcheted!!).

Like I'm not already stressed....!!!

Bertie has now conspired against me along with the dysfunctional body! I woke up this morning with the familiar feeling of a too tight band. I've struggled to eat all day and had a sensation of acid reflux - NICE!!!

I would soooooooo love a glass of wine and some chocolate but I know if I try, I'm going to REALLY regret it!!

Still, look on the bright side, I'm on annual leave this coming week - BLISS!!

2-0 to the dysfunctional body

Yes, sadly I am not pregnant again. The hospital have confirmed that I am still not ovulating so I've had to increase the dose.

I'm feeling a bit down as I think I'm chasing dreams that will never happen - even if I got pregnant there are a lot of risks due to my age. I feel I'm being silly and a bit selfish. My boyfriend is, as usual, being amazingly supportive - I'm so lucky really, perhaps it's time to appreciate what I have and stop dreaming.

Sorry if this is a bit depressing, I'll stop wallowing soon and get back to normal.

Oh dear ...

My good intentions, once again, did not come to pass! My week did not go according to plan at all!

I only had Wednesday night to myself, I had to go food shopping on Thursday night with my boyfriend's mother and then I had a hairdressers appointment last night. Both nights I only got in the door about 10 minutes before my boyfriend which mean I didn't get any uninterupted time on the laptop!

He is at work now but when he comes home, he starts a fortnight's holiday! Still, I am pretty excited as I have booked a week off for his second week which will be lovely. I'm hoping to be able to get some wedding stuff done. I will have to grab time on the laptop as and when.

My band is now back to normal although the weight is fluctuating slightly. I'm having good days and bad days but I am feeling really well and I think my face is looking thinner.

Peace at last!!!

For the first time in ages, I have the laptop and the house to myself!!! This means I can post in comfort without screwing my eyes up to try to read the mobile phone screen! I'll try to make the most of it this week as my boyfriend (or should I now say fiance!!) is only working this week and is then off for two weeks and then two weeks of earlies so I won't get this chance again for about five weeks!

Bertie has settled down somewhat although I do still struggle sometimes. The weight went off, looked like it was going on again and has then come off again so I don't know what to make of it!

Work is hideously busy, I am managing my first Employment Tribunal claim which is a great opportunity for me but very full on!! The last four weeks have just romped around, I can't believe how quickly they are going.

My dad is recovering very well from his knee replacement. It has been four weeks today, he is walking really well and even started driving again. It is great to see him getting around without the pain.

We have finally got onto proper broadband again. We've had it a week and it is total bliss after the mobile broadband which was soooooooooo slow!!

Does anyone reading this have any knowledge of dog behaviour??? We are concerned about our Lab cross Daisy who has just turned 7. She seems fine, in so much as she is eating and drinking as normal. She still enjoys playing games and going for walks. However, for the last two weeks or so she has taken to disappearing upstairs to her basket on an evening instead of snuggling up on the sofa with us which she normally does. It is weird as she is snuggled next to me right now but if my boyfriend came back she would disappear and she does the same if my boyfriend is here with her their own. It is almost as though she feels like a gooseberry!! Anyone got any thoughts??

Still no firm plans in place for the wedding yet, I just can't wait to be able to start planning. It might be a nice distraction if the fertility treatment doesn't work.

Well, I'm off to get some dinner, will try to post again while I have this golden window!!!