I was talking to my fiance over Christmas about my weight loss and how much difference it has made.
We were both stunned when we worked out that I have lost 25% of my original body weight - how amazing is that?! I'm three-quarters the woman I used to be.
As per my previous post, it hasn't always been easy but I'm so glad to be where I am now and delighted to still be losing.
Monday, December 27, 2010
Difficult Christmas but good result!
Well, it has been an interesting if somewhat difficult Christmas!
Nothing major! I had my works Christmas do on Thursday 23rd (postponed from 17th due to the snow!). Bertie was ghastly. It was in a very posh hotel in Cardiff. I struggled with the soup for starter and then disaster struck with the turkey. I must have got about 6 or 8 mouthfuls down and then it got stuck and it was extremely uncomfortable until it came back up in my napkin. I was mortified (once again!).
He's been impossible since. I could hardly eat much on Christmas Eve or Christmas Day and even yesterday was difficult. Consequently, I am feeling hungry but pleased to report I am a further three pounds lighter since Thursday! Always a silver lining.
I don't think it helps that I still have the nasty virus that is going around. I keep thinking it's cleared up and then it comes back. I've got a chesty cough which I think is irritating Bertie even more.
Whoever thinks this is an easy option has no idea - you don't get a day off. I'm seriously considering having a de-fill if this doesn't improve within the next few days. Either way, I will also speak to the nurse about whether I need to have a de-fill before the wedding/ honeymoon as I'm not going to have them spoilt by Bertie.
On the bright side, we had a lovely Christmas with the families and I am sitting here wearing a pinafore dress that I haven't worn for about 10 years. So, much as he has been ghastly, I do love Bertie really!
Nothing major! I had my works Christmas do on Thursday 23rd (postponed from 17th due to the snow!). Bertie was ghastly. It was in a very posh hotel in Cardiff. I struggled with the soup for starter and then disaster struck with the turkey. I must have got about 6 or 8 mouthfuls down and then it got stuck and it was extremely uncomfortable until it came back up in my napkin. I was mortified (once again!).
He's been impossible since. I could hardly eat much on Christmas Eve or Christmas Day and even yesterday was difficult. Consequently, I am feeling hungry but pleased to report I am a further three pounds lighter since Thursday! Always a silver lining.
I don't think it helps that I still have the nasty virus that is going around. I keep thinking it's cleared up and then it comes back. I've got a chesty cough which I think is irritating Bertie even more.
Whoever thinks this is an easy option has no idea - you don't get a day off. I'm seriously considering having a de-fill if this doesn't improve within the next few days. Either way, I will also speak to the nurse about whether I need to have a de-fill before the wedding/ honeymoon as I'm not going to have them spoilt by Bertie.
On the bright side, we had a lovely Christmas with the families and I am sitting here wearing a pinafore dress that I haven't worn for about 10 years. So, much as he has been ghastly, I do love Bertie really!
Friday, December 10, 2010
Note to self ...
... large slices of lemon drizzle cake and gastric bands do not make for a comfortable afternoon!!!
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
Getting excited!!
It's been a very wedding orientated few weeks! Since I last blogged we have chosen and ordered our invitations, bought our wedding rings, ordered the mens suits, been for a taster evening at the venue and my dress has arrived in the bridal shop.
I am going to try my dress on this Saturday. It won't be a fitting appointment, just to see it and try it on. It will just be me and my mum which is nice!
My weight is staying under 13stone, it has even gone down a little bit more. I bought my first pair of work trousers for over 10 years last week. I needed to keep warm!! I had to get a size 18 to be sure that they fitted my legs. They fit my thighs fine but are massive on the waist, they are like a pair of maternity trousers!
Last time I blogged, I had just had a spray tan for an evening out. We had an amazing night and I felt fantastic in my dress. My fiance told me that he felt emotional when he saw me all dressed up! I dread to think what he will be like at the wedding!! I will try to upload some photos soon.
I am going to try my dress on this Saturday. It won't be a fitting appointment, just to see it and try it on. It will just be me and my mum which is nice!
My weight is staying under 13stone, it has even gone down a little bit more. I bought my first pair of work trousers for over 10 years last week. I needed to keep warm!! I had to get a size 18 to be sure that they fitted my legs. They fit my thighs fine but are massive on the waist, they are like a pair of maternity trousers!
Last time I blogged, I had just had a spray tan for an evening out. We had an amazing night and I felt fantastic in my dress. My fiance told me that he felt emotional when he saw me all dressed up! I dread to think what he will be like at the wedding!! I will try to upload some photos soon.
Thursday, November 18, 2010
Browned off!!
Hehe - I'm sitting here looking rather orange (well not too bad really!!) I had a spray tan last night for the first time in my life! It is all to make me look better in my evening dress on Saturday. I had to strip down to my pants for the spraying and it made me realise how much more comfortable I am in my own skin these days, I would not have had the confidence to do that prior to Bertie.
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
Want to see the difference?
Here are two photos of my face which clearly show the difference in me! The first one was taken in March 2007 which is about 16 months before my band - I put more weight on in that time. The second one was taken in July of this year.
Yes, I am happy!!!
Hmmm
Well, my pessimistic side has been expecting the weight to tip back up over that 13 stone mark - just couldn't believe I'd got there - but no, it has steadfastly stayed below for three days now, whohoo!!! This is good news as my wedding dress will probably arrive in the shop within the next few weeks - need to be able to get into it!!
Work seems to be settling down a bit now, I'm feeling happier and not so 'up and down'. I'm sure it's because I am getting my head around the muddles!!
My Dad has practically sailed through his operation. He came home a day early and is walking really well. I'm so glad that it is all behind him and he can just concentrate on being able to walk me down the aisle pain and limp free!
Wedding plans are getting exciting! We think we've picked our invitations, just waiting to receive the sample through before we order.
The best news, though, is that my brother has booked his flights home - Yay and double yay!!! I'm so excited as I haven't seen him or his family for almost five years (I spent Christmas 2005 with them - they live in Australia). My nephew was only 10 and my niece was 8 so they have grown so much since then. I think my brother is quite excited too, which is not really like him!!
I think they are going to see a massive difference in me. I was at least 3 stone heavier when he last saw me and he doesn't know anything about Bertie.
I really can't tell you how happy I am that I had my band. Don't get me wrong, it isn't an easy option (sometimes it can be really frustrating) but I don't count calories or points or anything anymore and the weight is coming off slowly but surely. I look well, my walking is much improved and I can wear much nicer clothes (back in jeans after goodness knows how many years).
Everyone is different and it might not be the option for you. However, personally speaking, it was the right decision for me and money well spent!
Work seems to be settling down a bit now, I'm feeling happier and not so 'up and down'. I'm sure it's because I am getting my head around the muddles!!
My Dad has practically sailed through his operation. He came home a day early and is walking really well. I'm so glad that it is all behind him and he can just concentrate on being able to walk me down the aisle pain and limp free!
Wedding plans are getting exciting! We think we've picked our invitations, just waiting to receive the sample through before we order.
The best news, though, is that my brother has booked his flights home - Yay and double yay!!! I'm so excited as I haven't seen him or his family for almost five years (I spent Christmas 2005 with them - they live in Australia). My nephew was only 10 and my niece was 8 so they have grown so much since then. I think my brother is quite excited too, which is not really like him!!
I think they are going to see a massive difference in me. I was at least 3 stone heavier when he last saw me and he doesn't know anything about Bertie.
I really can't tell you how happy I am that I had my band. Don't get me wrong, it isn't an easy option (sometimes it can be really frustrating) but I don't count calories or points or anything anymore and the weight is coming off slowly but surely. I look well, my walking is much improved and I can wear much nicer clothes (back in jeans after goodness knows how many years).
Everyone is different and it might not be the option for you. However, personally speaking, it was the right decision for me and money well spent!
Monday, November 8, 2010
Not sure what is going on ....
but the weight is finally moving again!!
I haven't really done anything different but I've lost 2lbs in the last week - phew!!! I am now below 13st which is brilliant!! Still a long way to go but I've always said this is a marathon, not a sprint!!
This is the lightest I've been for about 8 years and I feel amazing! I bought an evening dress last week for a dinner dance (so grown up!!). I had to have it taken up and was amazed when the seamstress said the top had to be taken in as well! It was a size 16, it doesn't seem that long ago when I was kidding myself I could squeeze into a size 20!
I haven't really done anything different but I've lost 2lbs in the last week - phew!!! I am now below 13st which is brilliant!! Still a long way to go but I've always said this is a marathon, not a sprint!!
This is the lightest I've been for about 8 years and I feel amazing! I bought an evening dress last week for a dinner dance (so grown up!!). I had to have it taken up and was amazed when the seamstress said the top had to be taken in as well! It was a size 16, it doesn't seem that long ago when I was kidding myself I could squeeze into a size 20!
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Surprise!!!!
Just managing to get a second post in this month - by the skin of my teeth!
Not really sure where October has gone, it has certainly been busy. I've bought my niece's bridesmaid's dress this week which was exciting. I saw the one I wanted on the Coast website, went to see it in the shop and loved it. I then found a voucher for 25% off which was fab!
We've also booked the honeymoon - yippee!! Two weeks all inclusive in Mauritius - can't wait, I think I'm almost more excited about that than the wedding (almost but not quite!!).
The weight is staying firm. I spoke to the bariatric nurse a few weeks ago and, rather surprisingly, she has suggested having a little bit of fluid taken out. She says if it is too tight, you end up eating what will go down rather than what is good for you (which is very true!!). I've not quite got my head around that yet - loosen it to lose weight ... can't be right!!! I will see how it goes over the next few weeks.
Mum and I are going wedding shopping tomorrow! My dad is having his second knee replacement operation and my Mum is such a worrier that I know the only way to distract her is to do something like that. We're hoping to sort out the invites - I'm starting to worry about them now!! They have to go out in January and will need to be printed up etc. We will be quite near to the hospital so we can get there as soon as we hear that he's back on the ward.
Not really sure where October has gone, it has certainly been busy. I've bought my niece's bridesmaid's dress this week which was exciting. I saw the one I wanted on the Coast website, went to see it in the shop and loved it. I then found a voucher for 25% off which was fab!
We've also booked the honeymoon - yippee!! Two weeks all inclusive in Mauritius - can't wait, I think I'm almost more excited about that than the wedding (almost but not quite!!).
The weight is staying firm. I spoke to the bariatric nurse a few weeks ago and, rather surprisingly, she has suggested having a little bit of fluid taken out. She says if it is too tight, you end up eating what will go down rather than what is good for you (which is very true!!). I've not quite got my head around that yet - loosen it to lose weight ... can't be right!!! I will see how it goes over the next few weeks.
Mum and I are going wedding shopping tomorrow! My dad is having his second knee replacement operation and my Mum is such a worrier that I know the only way to distract her is to do something like that. We're hoping to sort out the invites - I'm starting to worry about them now!! They have to go out in January and will need to be printed up etc. We will be quite near to the hospital so we can get there as soon as we hear that he's back on the ward.
Thursday, October 7, 2010
Apologies - again!!
Ok, I hang my head in shame that September was my worst blogging month ever with only one post. I am sorry, I find it harder to blog when my other half is around and he seems to have been around a lot lately!!
I also don't seem to have as much time to myself as I thought I would, even though I'm not doing the travelling to work anymore! I guess I am busy with all the wedding planning. Just over six months to go, I can't believe how quickly it is coming round - yikes!!!
Work is incredibly busy, the company is very different to what I've been used to and I feel that I am in a constant muddle - my previous companies had very well structured policies and procedures which just don't seem to be in place here. The people are much nicer than the ones I was working with in my last job but I am quite stressed at times. I am having to step back and tell myself that I am only there for 9 months and then I walk away so I shouldn't stress myself out but it is easier said than done when you want to be professional.
We had a lovely holiday in Zante last week - can't believe we've been home a week! The weather wasn't great but we had some nice spells and I caught up on a lot of sleep (not that I feel the benefit now!!)
My weight is okay, I managed to stay the same on holiday. Bertie is being a bit tempermental. Some days he is fine but others he is a total horror and I can barely eat anything. I think the flight upset him a bit, as I was unable to eat much at all for the first few days of my holiday. I guess that helped me to not put any weight on!
I also don't seem to have as much time to myself as I thought I would, even though I'm not doing the travelling to work anymore! I guess I am busy with all the wedding planning. Just over six months to go, I can't believe how quickly it is coming round - yikes!!!
Work is incredibly busy, the company is very different to what I've been used to and I feel that I am in a constant muddle - my previous companies had very well structured policies and procedures which just don't seem to be in place here. The people are much nicer than the ones I was working with in my last job but I am quite stressed at times. I am having to step back and tell myself that I am only there for 9 months and then I walk away so I shouldn't stress myself out but it is easier said than done when you want to be professional.
We had a lovely holiday in Zante last week - can't believe we've been home a week! The weather wasn't great but we had some nice spells and I caught up on a lot of sleep (not that I feel the benefit now!!)
My weight is okay, I managed to stay the same on holiday. Bertie is being a bit tempermental. Some days he is fine but others he is a total horror and I can barely eat anything. I think the flight upset him a bit, as I was unable to eat much at all for the first few days of my holiday. I guess that helped me to not put any weight on!
Friday, September 17, 2010
Boo!!!
Well, I've had a bit of a break from blogging, mainly because I've been extremely busy but also because I rarely get the opportunity to do so due to my other half always being around! Not that I am complaining about that!
The good news is, the weight is starting to shift again. Ever since I had the awful episode at work in August, Bertie has been quite tight so I haven't got much down. I am now over half way on the journey and feeling fantastic!
I'm blogging quickly now as I have to go into work - I'm going in late because I did a shift last night as well. Still not too bad, I'm going in for 12 oclock and will be finishing at 4 oclock so it will fly by.
We're off to Zante next Thursday - I just can't wait, I really need this break.
Not sure if you are following the Pope's visit to the UK but I've just seen some snippets on the BBC news website and was stunned to see that he is currently visiting my old university college - it was weird to see the pictures!!
Anyway, must dash, got to get to work.
The good news is, the weight is starting to shift again. Ever since I had the awful episode at work in August, Bertie has been quite tight so I haven't got much down. I am now over half way on the journey and feeling fantastic!
I'm blogging quickly now as I have to go into work - I'm going in late because I did a shift last night as well. Still not too bad, I'm going in for 12 oclock and will be finishing at 4 oclock so it will fly by.
We're off to Zante next Thursday - I just can't wait, I really need this break.
Not sure if you are following the Pope's visit to the UK but I've just seen some snippets on the BBC news website and was stunned to see that he is currently visiting my old university college - it was weird to see the pictures!!
Anyway, must dash, got to get to work.
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
Not sure where to begin!
I can't believe it is almost the end of August and I've only managed one other post this month - I think I will just have to accept that I can't post as often as I would like.
The new job is still going well, although I feel in a constant muddle as their processes and procedures are not as well defined as I have been used to. It does mean that I have to do more 'Old School HR' which is great but I sometimes feel like I am flying without a safety net which is a bit scary!!
The girls I work with are great but I hadn't told them about Bertie - I didn't feel the need or inclination to do so. Would you believe, it made his presence well and truly felt at lunchtime when he rejected the cheese roll I tried to eat. I was totally mortified and obviously had to explain to the three shocked girls sitting with me. It was entirely my own fault as I'd been getting rather complacent about eating. So much for keeping him quiet!!
The new job is still going well, although I feel in a constant muddle as their processes and procedures are not as well defined as I have been used to. It does mean that I have to do more 'Old School HR' which is great but I sometimes feel like I am flying without a safety net which is a bit scary!!
The girls I work with are great but I hadn't told them about Bertie - I didn't feel the need or inclination to do so. Would you believe, it made his presence well and truly felt at lunchtime when he rejected the cheese roll I tried to eat. I was totally mortified and obviously had to explain to the three shocked girls sitting with me. It was entirely my own fault as I'd been getting rather complacent about eating. So much for keeping him quiet!!
Saturday, August 14, 2010
Feet haven't touched the ground lately!
This will be a short post as I am trying to type whilst my other half is in the kitchen and I don't want to draw attention to myself - he is very nosey!!!
The new job is going very well, it was a great move. The commute is just 20 minutes each way. The atmosphere is very relaxed, its dress down on Fridays with a 4pm finish - bliss!!
The main problem is a very cheap canteen so I am eating more - must try to control that!
We are off to my parents later, it was my Dad's 70th birthday yesterday and they are having a BBQ tonight to celebrate - might be an indoor BBQ as the weather is not being kind!
Hopefully, we are going via the travel agents and booking a week away in September, I'm desperate for a break and some sunshine!!
I will post again when I can, I just don't seem to get much time to myself on an evening anymore!!
The new job is going very well, it was a great move. The commute is just 20 minutes each way. The atmosphere is very relaxed, its dress down on Fridays with a 4pm finish - bliss!!
The main problem is a very cheap canteen so I am eating more - must try to control that!
We are off to my parents later, it was my Dad's 70th birthday yesterday and they are having a BBQ tonight to celebrate - might be an indoor BBQ as the weather is not being kind!
Hopefully, we are going via the travel agents and booking a week away in September, I'm desperate for a break and some sunshine!!
I will post again when I can, I just don't seem to get much time to myself on an evening anymore!!
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Too good to last!!
Well, the calm feeling didn't last too long!! I've had a few stresses with my new job, mainly around getting the offer confirmed in writing and trying to iron out a few issues with the system they are using - it is a bit complicated but I'll try to explain!
I got the job through one agent, Company A, but because they don't have a contract with the company who are employing me, Company B, I now have to sit under another agency, Company C, for payroll but they outsource their payroll to Company D (can you see where I'm getting confused!!). Company C sent me out the wrong paperwork, so it appeared that I was having to set up as a limited company and effectively become a Contractor. In addition, I was told I would be weekly paid and have my holiday pay added on to my daily rate which means I won't get paid when I take holiday. I have managed to get the pay sorted to monthly (didn't fancy having to change all my direct debits) but I can't change the holiday pay issue so will have to make sure I put that money to one side and pay myself when I take holiday. I have now got the provisional contract but they have the wrong end date on it (a month short) and are talking about adding National Insurance to my daily rate which implies that I won't be PAYE which is different to what they've told me - I don't know about you but my head is hurting with it and tonight I've cracked open the wine (for medicinal purposes, you understand!!).
Tomorrow is my last day in my current job, it has come around so quickly. I can't believe I won't be making the 26 mile trek each way anymore - yay!!! I'm scared I'll forget on Monday and end up going to Bristol by mistake!!
We've been invited to go back to our wedding venue on Tuesday to have a taster evening - a lovely surprise and I can't wait to see it again!!
I got the job through one agent, Company A, but because they don't have a contract with the company who are employing me, Company B, I now have to sit under another agency, Company C, for payroll but they outsource their payroll to Company D (can you see where I'm getting confused!!). Company C sent me out the wrong paperwork, so it appeared that I was having to set up as a limited company and effectively become a Contractor. In addition, I was told I would be weekly paid and have my holiday pay added on to my daily rate which means I won't get paid when I take holiday. I have managed to get the pay sorted to monthly (didn't fancy having to change all my direct debits) but I can't change the holiday pay issue so will have to make sure I put that money to one side and pay myself when I take holiday. I have now got the provisional contract but they have the wrong end date on it (a month short) and are talking about adding National Insurance to my daily rate which implies that I won't be PAYE which is different to what they've told me - I don't know about you but my head is hurting with it and tonight I've cracked open the wine (for medicinal purposes, you understand!!).
Tomorrow is my last day in my current job, it has come around so quickly. I can't believe I won't be making the 26 mile trek each way anymore - yay!!! I'm scared I'll forget on Monday and end up going to Bristol by mistake!!
We've been invited to go back to our wedding venue on Tuesday to have a taster evening - a lovely surprise and I can't wait to see it again!!
Saturday, July 17, 2010
And breathe .... !!!
Well, things have calmed down a bit! They certainly couldn't have gone on the way they were going!
The dog is fine. She's had her staples out and the vet wasn't the slightest bit concerned about the lump. Just told me to keep an eye on it and bring her back if it gets bigger.
My boss has got over herself and is being okay. I just want to get through the next 10 working days and then start my new job.
Life is good and calm .... for now!!!
The dog is fine. She's had her staples out and the vet wasn't the slightest bit concerned about the lump. Just told me to keep an eye on it and bring her back if it gets bigger.
My boss has got over herself and is being okay. I just want to get through the next 10 working days and then start my new job.
Life is good and calm .... for now!!!
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
Stress!!!!
OMG - life has been a little tough lately!
The good news, as you probably gathered from my last post, is that I got the job I went for - the one I had the second interview for, the other one didn't go anywhere.
My boss, after saying she would come to an agreement on my notice period (which is six weeks!), decided to be a b*tch and when I actually resigned said she wouldn't negotiate at all. Unfortunately, it was too late as I'd told my new employer that she would compromise so I had to resign giving four weeks notice rather than six. She went mental when I told her, shouting and swearing at me - totally unprofessional! She did apologise but then had another outburst last Tuesday over something so trivial! I was very upset, particularly when she made a pathetic, insincere attempt at an apology the following day. I ended up having to speak to her future line manager who was brilliant. She has spoken to her and things have improved,. It was a bit awkward at first, but things seem to be getting slowly better - only 13 work days to go, who's counting?!!!
The dog has her staples out tomorrow. Can you believe, whilst all this has been going on I've discovered another lump and this one is worrying me?! I will ask the vet to check it out but please say a prayer that she will be okay. I'm hoping that it is benign and won't need to be removed. She seems fine in herself, still chasing around like a puppy!
I start my new job on 2nd August and really can't wait!!
The good news, as you probably gathered from my last post, is that I got the job I went for - the one I had the second interview for, the other one didn't go anywhere.
My boss, after saying she would come to an agreement on my notice period (which is six weeks!), decided to be a b*tch and when I actually resigned said she wouldn't negotiate at all. Unfortunately, it was too late as I'd told my new employer that she would compromise so I had to resign giving four weeks notice rather than six. She went mental when I told her, shouting and swearing at me - totally unprofessional! She did apologise but then had another outburst last Tuesday over something so trivial! I was very upset, particularly when she made a pathetic, insincere attempt at an apology the following day. I ended up having to speak to her future line manager who was brilliant. She has spoken to her and things have improved,. It was a bit awkward at first, but things seem to be getting slowly better - only 13 work days to go, who's counting?!!!
The dog has her staples out tomorrow. Can you believe, whilst all this has been going on I've discovered another lump and this one is worrying me?! I will ask the vet to check it out but please say a prayer that she will be okay. I'm hoping that it is benign and won't need to be removed. She seems fine in herself, still chasing around like a puppy!
I start my new job on 2nd August and really can't wait!!
Thursday, July 8, 2010
Still alive!!!
Sorry for lack of posts, under extreme pressure at work. My line manager is behaving very unprofessionally and I may be forced to raise a grievance - just what I need during my notice period!
Will do a full post as soon as I can. Have lost weight though - always a silver lining!!
Monday, June 28, 2010
Still stressed!!
But not yet succumbed to a nervous breakdown!
Work has been horrendous, the deal has been signed and my job is transferring to the new company. My whole team is transferring but only half the work is, so I must draw my own conclusions as to what will happen after we transfer!
Consequently, I have been applying for jobs closer to home. Response to my CV has been very encouraging and I had two first interviews last week. I have a second interview for one later this afternoon and have still to hear on the other one.
The dog managed to pull her stitches out last Tuesday. Fortunately my boyfriend was at home and able to whiz her up to the vets to have 5 staples put in. She now has a lampshade collar and a sock on to stop her doing it again. I took a flyer and left the collar off yesterday in the sweltering heat and she now only has 4 staples - collar reinstated immediately!!
Then my boyfriend's father got rushed into hospital 30 miles away. He had a blackout at a wedding, fell over cutting his head open and breaking his wrist (which wasn't discovered until the next day). My boyfriend got a call at work and had to come home so that we could dash over to the hospital and support his mum. His dad was kept in so we had to go back to the wedding venue to pick their car up and take his mum and the car home. I got to bed at 1.30am and had to be up for work the next day!
All in all, it is still pretty stressful. On the positives, I bought a new skirt the other week, size 16 with a proper zip (ie not elasticated) and thought it would be a bit tight but it is actually a bit too big. It is linen so it gives a bit but I have to put a safety pin in the side to keep it up!!
Work has been horrendous, the deal has been signed and my job is transferring to the new company. My whole team is transferring but only half the work is, so I must draw my own conclusions as to what will happen after we transfer!
Consequently, I have been applying for jobs closer to home. Response to my CV has been very encouraging and I had two first interviews last week. I have a second interview for one later this afternoon and have still to hear on the other one.
The dog managed to pull her stitches out last Tuesday. Fortunately my boyfriend was at home and able to whiz her up to the vets to have 5 staples put in. She now has a lampshade collar and a sock on to stop her doing it again. I took a flyer and left the collar off yesterday in the sweltering heat and she now only has 4 staples - collar reinstated immediately!!
Then my boyfriend's father got rushed into hospital 30 miles away. He had a blackout at a wedding, fell over cutting his head open and breaking his wrist (which wasn't discovered until the next day). My boyfriend got a call at work and had to come home so that we could dash over to the hospital and support his mum. His dad was kept in so we had to go back to the wedding venue to pick their car up and take his mum and the car home. I got to bed at 1.30am and had to be up for work the next day!
All in all, it is still pretty stressful. On the positives, I bought a new skirt the other week, size 16 with a proper zip (ie not elasticated) and thought it would be a bit tight but it is actually a bit too big. It is linen so it gives a bit but I have to put a safety pin in the side to keep it up!!
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
Nervous breakdown anyone???
Where do I start?!!!
My stress levels are through the roof and I honestly don't know which way is up!
My stress levels are through the roof and I honestly don't know which way is up!
- I haven't managed to motivate myself to get on with my management report as hoped.
- My company is likely to be sold and although my job will probably stay, it will change significantly - may cause problems with completing item 1 on this list!
- I now need to decide whether I stay and continue to do the 50 mile round trip each day to work with people that, frankly, I don't like or do I take the bull by the horns and find another job nearer to home - may cause problems with completing item 1 on this list!!
- A 'friend' who is a wedding photographer 200 miles away, badgered me into letting her do my wedding photos. When I agreed, she wanted me to pay a £100 deposit to hold the date (which I have no problem with!!) but when I checked the price, not only was she not offering me any discount on her advertised prices, it was going to cost me two nights accommodation for her!!! I've declined but I hate things like that - I know people have to make a profit but I felt a bit exploited.
- The dog had to go into the vets last Friday for an operation to remove a lump on her side. She is fine but was clearly unhappy with me on the day as I'd taken her in - she was very clingy to my fiance when we picked her up, she has forgiven me now!!
- I managed to offend my mother last week with the anniversary card I sent them. It was a funny one but apparently she didn't see the funny side - oops! All forgiven now, I think!
Arghhhhhhhh!!!
On the plus side, I went to London on Saturday with a very dear friend who offered my lots of support! We had a lovely lunch, with a bottle of wine, and then went to see Oliver! which was brilliant. This dear friend has offered to arrange my Hen weekend for me next year which is really kind of her.
Anyone know of any jobs going where I can get paid shed loads of money for very little effort - ideally working from home? ... Thought not!!!!!
Sunday, June 6, 2010
Motivation anyone????
If anyone has any spare motivation to give, I'd be a grateful recipient!!
I am supposed to be working on the Management Research Report which is the final part of my CIPD qualification but I just can't seem to get started and I am reverting to all sorts of distraction activities - I thought I left that all behind when I finished university!!
I've just read my last few posts and realised that I didn't update you after my wedding dress shopping, so here goes (distraction activity number 4!!)....
I've ordered my dress!!!! I couldn't believe it, I had two appointments on the same day and saw THE dress in the first one! We still went to the other appointment but couldn't find anything to match the one so I went back later that afternoon with my mum (who cried when she saw me in it!!) and ordered it! It is perfect for me, not too fussy but really pretty and I felt amazing in it! It now seems very real - especially having to pay for half of it up front!! Mind you, I managed to get it at a very reasonable price compared to what I was expecting to have to pay! Put it like this, I had significant change from £1,000. Money I can now spend elsewhere.
I am supposed to be working on the Management Research Report which is the final part of my CIPD qualification but I just can't seem to get started and I am reverting to all sorts of distraction activities - I thought I left that all behind when I finished university!!
I've just read my last few posts and realised that I didn't update you after my wedding dress shopping, so here goes (distraction activity number 4!!)....
I've ordered my dress!!!! I couldn't believe it, I had two appointments on the same day and saw THE dress in the first one! We still went to the other appointment but couldn't find anything to match the one so I went back later that afternoon with my mum (who cried when she saw me in it!!) and ordered it! It is perfect for me, not too fussy but really pretty and I felt amazing in it! It now seems very real - especially having to pay for half of it up front!! Mind you, I managed to get it at a very reasonable price compared to what I was expecting to have to pay! Put it like this, I had significant change from £1,000. Money I can now spend elsewhere.
Saturday, June 5, 2010
Bliss!!
Well, I'm sitting in the lounge, with the doors open enjoying the lovely weather! I've done my shopping, ready for dinner tonight and I've done some cleaning so I feel entitled to spend an hour or so on the laptop!
Again, it's been a busy week but nothing too stressful. Apart from the poor dog needing to have a minor op! She has got a little lump on her side and the vet doesn't know what it is so she's going in next Friday to have it taken off and sent away for testing. Fingers crossed it is all benign. She's happy enough in herself, charging around like the mad thing she is! The biggest issue at the moment is, she's had to come off her steroids which she takes for her skin allergies and consequently, she is now itching like crazy. Unfortunately, I can't find her lampshade collar so I have to physically stop her from scratching herself raw - poor thing!
I think I am going to have to seriously think about getting another fill, the weight has crept up very slightly. I'm trying not to stress about it but I think I have lost my focus a bit, which is mad when you think that I am getting married next year! I think the problem is that I have too much on the go at the moment!
Again, it's been a busy week but nothing too stressful. Apart from the poor dog needing to have a minor op! She has got a little lump on her side and the vet doesn't know what it is so she's going in next Friday to have it taken off and sent away for testing. Fingers crossed it is all benign. She's happy enough in herself, charging around like the mad thing she is! The biggest issue at the moment is, she's had to come off her steroids which she takes for her skin allergies and consequently, she is now itching like crazy. Unfortunately, I can't find her lampshade collar so I have to physically stop her from scratching herself raw - poor thing!
I think I am going to have to seriously think about getting another fill, the weight has crept up very slightly. I'm trying not to stress about it but I think I have lost my focus a bit, which is mad when you think that I am getting married next year! I think the problem is that I have too much on the go at the moment!
Sunday, May 30, 2010
Really need to slow down!
I haven't stopped since I left work on Friday!
I got home and the other half was champing at the bit to go for a curry. We then had a relatively early night as he was working an early shift yesterday and I had a full day planned dress shopping. He got up at 6am and I didn't really go back to sleep. I got up at about 8.30 and had a major trauma with my mobile phone - long story but it managed to delete all my contacts!! I freaked out and totally panicked - after four frantic calls to Vodafone it got sorted but I then had to dash to make my first bridal appointment.
My mum wasn't well so it was just me and my friend. We found THE one at the first appointment. When I put it on, my friend, the assistant and I all went WOW!! I made another appointment to come back with my mum later that afternoon and then we went to the other appointment. I tried loads but none were as good as the one in the first shop. Mum was well enough to come back with me and she cried when she saw me in it so I knew it was the one and I've ordered it! I'm shocked, I fully expected to take ages to find something - it all feels very real now!
I didn't get home til gone 6 and we were supposed to be at some friends for 6.30. They knew I was running late but it was still a quick hop in the shower and then off out again with wet hair! I was totally shattered and struggled to stay awake!
The other half has gone gliding so I'm planning to have a gentle day with a bit of cleaning just to keep him happy! Then I think there will be wine!!
I got home and the other half was champing at the bit to go for a curry. We then had a relatively early night as he was working an early shift yesterday and I had a full day planned dress shopping. He got up at 6am and I didn't really go back to sleep. I got up at about 8.30 and had a major trauma with my mobile phone - long story but it managed to delete all my contacts!! I freaked out and totally panicked - after four frantic calls to Vodafone it got sorted but I then had to dash to make my first bridal appointment.
My mum wasn't well so it was just me and my friend. We found THE one at the first appointment. When I put it on, my friend, the assistant and I all went WOW!! I made another appointment to come back with my mum later that afternoon and then we went to the other appointment. I tried loads but none were as good as the one in the first shop. Mum was well enough to come back with me and she cried when she saw me in it so I knew it was the one and I've ordered it! I'm shocked, I fully expected to take ages to find something - it all feels very real now!
I didn't get home til gone 6 and we were supposed to be at some friends for 6.30. They knew I was running late but it was still a quick hop in the shower and then off out again with wet hair! I was totally shattered and struggled to stay awake!
The other half has gone gliding so I'm planning to have a gentle day with a bit of cleaning just to keep him happy! Then I think there will be wine!!
Thursday, May 27, 2010
Happier Bunny!
I am much happier! I got my engagement ring back yesterday and it looks all shiney and new! In fact, I think it looks shinier and sparklier than when I first got it. I can't stop looking at it and smiling - how sad am I?!!
I've just been away on a team building event with work - it was great fun, especially the free bar and not getting to bed until 2am - I am way too old for that (and the Sambucca slammers!!). The worst thing is, with a gastric band, you can't have the obligatory medicinal fry-up the morning after 'cos it just won't go down (especially if you've eaten a three course meal the night before!). I had a rejuvinating glass of orange juice but couldn't eat anything til lunchtime, still I felt much better once I did eat!
One nice thing that happened was one of my colleagues who is currently on maternity leave (but came along for the fun!) commented on how much weight I'd lost - she would really notice as she doesn't see me very often at the moment. She mentioned it more than once which was even nicer!
Well, I'm off wedding dress shopping on Saturday - can't blinking wait!!
I've just been away on a team building event with work - it was great fun, especially the free bar and not getting to bed until 2am - I am way too old for that (and the Sambucca slammers!!). The worst thing is, with a gastric band, you can't have the obligatory medicinal fry-up the morning after 'cos it just won't go down (especially if you've eaten a three course meal the night before!). I had a rejuvinating glass of orange juice but couldn't eat anything til lunchtime, still I felt much better once I did eat!
One nice thing that happened was one of my colleagues who is currently on maternity leave (but came along for the fun!) commented on how much weight I'd lost - she would really notice as she doesn't see me very often at the moment. She mentioned it more than once which was even nicer!
Well, I'm off wedding dress shopping on Saturday - can't blinking wait!!
Friday, May 21, 2010
Thank God it's Friday!!!
Well, I am sitting here, wine glass in hand thanking God that it is the weekend!
I had a crap day at work, well it was going well until about 4.45pm when I realised that I don't know where some important paperwork is!! I am feeling a bit stressed about it so the wine is purely medicinal, you understand!!
I am still feeling the loss of my engagement ring, my finger feels so naked! I tried one of my other rings on that finger to help but it just felt weird! I am clinging onto the hope that I will have it back on Wednesday!
Bertie is quite tight at the moment so I don't seem to be able to eat very comfortably but that has to be good ... hasn't it??
I had a crap day at work, well it was going well until about 4.45pm when I realised that I don't know where some important paperwork is!! I am feeling a bit stressed about it so the wine is purely medicinal, you understand!!
I am still feeling the loss of my engagement ring, my finger feels so naked! I tried one of my other rings on that finger to help but it just felt weird! I am clinging onto the hope that I will have it back on Wednesday!
Bertie is quite tight at the moment so I don't seem to be able to eat very comfortably but that has to be good ... hasn't it??
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
A bit upset ... but being silly really!!
I know, I know, things have been manic lately and I haven't had an evening to myself to be able to blog.
I'm feeling a bit upset tonight and I know I'm being daft! I've noticed that my engagement ring felt a bit rough around the setting recently and I was at the Mall where we bought it tonight so I took it in and asked them to check it out. Apparently, one of the claws has lifted and although the diamond was secure, it has had to be sent off to be tightened. It is going to be gone for at least a week, possibly 10 days - I feel so lost without it!
I've lost another pound - purely down to the manic life I'm living at the moment! I met up with a friend on Saturday who I haven't seen since the end of October - she could really see a difference, which gave me a boost!
We went to see the registrar on Monday to serve our notice of intent to marry - so formal and official!!! We get the official paperwork on 2nd June!
I'm feeling a bit upset tonight and I know I'm being daft! I've noticed that my engagement ring felt a bit rough around the setting recently and I was at the Mall where we bought it tonight so I took it in and asked them to check it out. Apparently, one of the claws has lifted and although the diamond was secure, it has had to be sent off to be tightened. It is going to be gone for at least a week, possibly 10 days - I feel so lost without it!
I've lost another pound - purely down to the manic life I'm living at the moment! I met up with a friend on Saturday who I haven't seen since the end of October - she could really see a difference, which gave me a boost!
We went to see the registrar on Monday to serve our notice of intent to marry - so formal and official!!! We get the official paperwork on 2nd June!
Sunday, May 9, 2010
Another lovely weekend!
I'm struggling to stay awake (at 3.30pm!!). I've had a lovely weekend so far and it's not over yet as I have tomorrow off as well!
On Friday night I met up with one of my friends who I don't get to see often enough! We just went to Pizza Express but it was lovely to catch up on all the news. It was the first time I'd seen her since we booked the wedding so we had lots to discuss. She is going to come wedding dress shopping with me on 29th May - she is about the same size as me and always looks really well dressed. I think she will encourage me to try things that I wouldn't normally try. I've booked two appointments one at 11 and one at 2 so plenty of time for lunch as well!
Then yesterday we had some friends over to stay, I haven't seen them since we got engaged so lots of catching up to do there too! We went out for a curry then back to the local for one drink then home for more wine/beer. It was really great to see them. They stayed for a cooked breakfast so we had a leisurely morning as well! It was nice because they are my friends but the men seemed to hit it off really well.
Now, my other half has gone gliding and I have the house to myself for a few hours - bliss!!
Tomorrow we are taking both sets of parents to the venue as they haven't seen it yet. So exciting times!!
Bertie seems to be a bit tight again, I couldn't eat all my pasta on Friday night and there was no chance in hell of a pudding but the scales are not being friendly - how does that work?!!
I'm contemplating having a band fill, just to get another stone off before I order my dress. Trouble is, finding the time to get it done!
On Friday night I met up with one of my friends who I don't get to see often enough! We just went to Pizza Express but it was lovely to catch up on all the news. It was the first time I'd seen her since we booked the wedding so we had lots to discuss. She is going to come wedding dress shopping with me on 29th May - she is about the same size as me and always looks really well dressed. I think she will encourage me to try things that I wouldn't normally try. I've booked two appointments one at 11 and one at 2 so plenty of time for lunch as well!
Then yesterday we had some friends over to stay, I haven't seen them since we got engaged so lots of catching up to do there too! We went out for a curry then back to the local for one drink then home for more wine/beer. It was really great to see them. They stayed for a cooked breakfast so we had a leisurely morning as well! It was nice because they are my friends but the men seemed to hit it off really well.
Now, my other half has gone gliding and I have the house to myself for a few hours - bliss!!
Tomorrow we are taking both sets of parents to the venue as they haven't seen it yet. So exciting times!!
Bertie seems to be a bit tight again, I couldn't eat all my pasta on Friday night and there was no chance in hell of a pudding but the scales are not being friendly - how does that work?!!
I'm contemplating having a band fill, just to get another stone off before I order my dress. Trouble is, finding the time to get it done!
Monday, May 3, 2010
Life is good!!
It doesn't really get much better than this, a bank holiday weekend with reasonably nice weather and Back to the Future on the telly!!
I've had a lovely weekend. Friday I spent at the hairdressers having my hair cut and coloured - no more grey for a few weeks!! We had a nice quiet evening in, just the two of us and an M&S Two Dine in for £10 dinner - can't beat that for value.
Then we had some friends over for dinner on Saturday evening, it was really relaxed and great fun. Their daughter is going to be my youngest bridesmaid, she will be three in July so will be just coming up to four when we get married.
We went to my fiance's great-aunt's 80th birthday yesterday, it was actually quite nice. I wore a dress and jacket that I bought for a wedding 8 years ago and I think it looked better on me yesterday than it did when I first wore it. The dress fitted beautifully and the jacket - I haven't worn them for years!! It's not often that I feel really great about my appearance but I felt fantastic yesterday and I know my fiance was proud to show me off which is always a lovely feeling. It was a lovely afternoon.
I'm now sitting watching TV with the dog curled up beside me, my fiance is at work and I've done the food shopping ready to cook him a tasty meal when he gets back - life is good!!
I've had a lovely weekend. Friday I spent at the hairdressers having my hair cut and coloured - no more grey for a few weeks!! We had a nice quiet evening in, just the two of us and an M&S Two Dine in for £10 dinner - can't beat that for value.
Then we had some friends over for dinner on Saturday evening, it was really relaxed and great fun. Their daughter is going to be my youngest bridesmaid, she will be three in July so will be just coming up to four when we get married.
We went to my fiance's great-aunt's 80th birthday yesterday, it was actually quite nice. I wore a dress and jacket that I bought for a wedding 8 years ago and I think it looked better on me yesterday than it did when I first wore it. The dress fitted beautifully and the jacket - I haven't worn them for years!! It's not often that I feel really great about my appearance but I felt fantastic yesterday and I know my fiance was proud to show me off which is always a lovely feeling. It was a lovely afternoon.
I'm now sitting watching TV with the dog curled up beside me, my fiance is at work and I've done the food shopping ready to cook him a tasty meal when he gets back - life is good!!
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Just a quick post!
I haven't had much chance to post lately, work is busy, other half is constantly around and I'm trying to plan a wedding!!!
I'm feeling very happy with my new shape at the moment. I'm the lightest I've been for about 8 years which is a great feeling. I feel so much more confident in my body, I don't feel like a blob anymore.
I'm just contemplating whether to have a small fill to kickstart me on the wedding diet!!
I'm feeling very happy with my new shape at the moment. I'm the lightest I've been for about 8 years which is a great feeling. I feel so much more confident in my body, I don't feel like a blob anymore.
I'm just contemplating whether to have a small fill to kickstart me on the wedding diet!!
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Just stepped on the rollercoaster....!!!!
OMG - we've booked the wedding!!
We went to view a possible venue today and ended up booking it. We're getting married on 27th April next year (so it will be my wedding anniversary next Tuesday!) and I can't wait! The venue is amazing and absolutely perfect for us.
I need to get cracking and start making my plans - where on earth do I start?!!!
I'll try not to turn this into a wedding blog but I can't promise not to mention it from time to time!!
We went to view a possible venue today and ended up booking it. We're getting married on 27th April next year (so it will be my wedding anniversary next Tuesday!) and I can't wait! The venue is amazing and absolutely perfect for us.
I need to get cracking and start making my plans - where on earth do I start?!!!
I'll try not to turn this into a wedding blog but I can't promise not to mention it from time to time!!
Monday, April 19, 2010
Starting to see a pattern...
... with Bertie's odd behaviour!
I've had another spell of Bertie being unbelieveably tight for no obvious reason. This is the third episode in as many months and it is due to one of two possible reasons (or a combination of both!). It is either:
I've had another spell of Bertie being unbelieveably tight for no obvious reason. This is the third episode in as many months and it is due to one of two possible reasons (or a combination of both!). It is either:
- To do with my monthly cycle
- To do with the Clomid tablets I have been taking
- A bit of both
All I know is that it is extremely tight at times and I can only manage a few mouthfuls of food. Sadly, even white wine is not as enjoyable at times. I seem to get a burning feeling in my throat and the feeling that I am going to bring everything back up - not nice.
Still, I've lost another pound - bring it on!!
Saturday, April 17, 2010
What a week!!
I am sitting here, struggling to keep my eyes open and it's only 2.30pm!
Sorry for the lack of blogging, again, but I've had a hell of a week! I had to travel upto Liverpool last Sunday for training on our new IT system for work. I had to be rearing to go at 9.30 on Monday morning, so not practial to drive up on the day! I was there until Wednesday afternoon. The journey back was hideous, the M6 roadworks were a nightmare - didn't help that I hit it right on rush hour! The course was full on and although the system will be brilliant when it is launched, there is so much to remember.
I was then in work on Thursday, thinking I could possibly slip off a bit early - no chance, we had a new tribunal claim come in which always causes a flurry of activity. The claim is in relation to a case I managed, I'm confident that we should be able to get it struck out as having no prospect of success but we still have to prepare just in case.
Then yesterday afternoon was the funeral for my former colleague. I left at 3pm to get to the crematorium in plenty of time. It was literally a 10 minute drive and the funeral was at 4. Well, my expectations were right, it was heaving and even at 3.30 the roads around the crematorium were at a standstill! It holds 100 people in the room, the room was packed, the lobby was packed and there were loads of us standing outside! It was great for her family to see how many people turned out for her. It was very emotional.
This morning, I struggled to get out of bed at 10.30 and I still feel as though all my energy has been sapped.
Still, my other half is working until 9.30 tonight so I have the house to myself. I've just got to go and drag myself around Tesco then I can sit out in the sun and relax. I feel a glass of white coming on!!
Sorry for the lack of blogging, again, but I've had a hell of a week! I had to travel upto Liverpool last Sunday for training on our new IT system for work. I had to be rearing to go at 9.30 on Monday morning, so not practial to drive up on the day! I was there until Wednesday afternoon. The journey back was hideous, the M6 roadworks were a nightmare - didn't help that I hit it right on rush hour! The course was full on and although the system will be brilliant when it is launched, there is so much to remember.
I was then in work on Thursday, thinking I could possibly slip off a bit early - no chance, we had a new tribunal claim come in which always causes a flurry of activity. The claim is in relation to a case I managed, I'm confident that we should be able to get it struck out as having no prospect of success but we still have to prepare just in case.
Then yesterday afternoon was the funeral for my former colleague. I left at 3pm to get to the crematorium in plenty of time. It was literally a 10 minute drive and the funeral was at 4. Well, my expectations were right, it was heaving and even at 3.30 the roads around the crematorium were at a standstill! It holds 100 people in the room, the room was packed, the lobby was packed and there were loads of us standing outside! It was great for her family to see how many people turned out for her. It was very emotional.
This morning, I struggled to get out of bed at 10.30 and I still feel as though all my energy has been sapped.
Still, my other half is working until 9.30 tonight so I have the house to myself. I've just got to go and drag myself around Tesco then I can sit out in the sun and relax. I feel a glass of white coming on!!
Saturday, April 10, 2010
Struggling to accept ....
.... why someone who is so lovely, kind and caring should die from cancer at 26? One of my colleagues in my previous job was diagnosed with bowel cancer about a year ago, by the time they caught it, it had spread to her liver and lungs. She died on Thursday. I know people always say nice things when someone dies, but this girl really was a lovely person who would do anything to help anyone.
I feel so angry that she has missed so many things she should have been able to take for granted, like getting married and having children etc. If I think back at what I'd done with my life at 26, it wasn't anywhere near enough. I hadn't bought my house, I hadn't really fallen in love, I hadn't got my first dog of my own, I hadn't become an auntie, I'm sure I could think of more!
So ... I'm going to give a lecture ... appreciate what and who you have in your life, it is all so precious and fragile and you don't know how long you will have it. Tell those you love, that you love them as often as you can and be gentle with them. Don't worry about what you don't have, most of it is unimportant. Do the things that make you happy.
Lecture over, now I am going to prepare for the dinner party I'm holding tonight and do what my friend would want ... I'm going to smile, laugh, have a drink with friends and appreciate that I have them. Then I am going to hold my fiance close and tell him how much I love him.
Laura - you were a very special person who has touched my life very deeply. I admire your dignity and bravery in facing your illness and I hope you rest in the peace you truly deserve. No more pain, sweetheart.
I feel so angry that she has missed so many things she should have been able to take for granted, like getting married and having children etc. If I think back at what I'd done with my life at 26, it wasn't anywhere near enough. I hadn't bought my house, I hadn't really fallen in love, I hadn't got my first dog of my own, I hadn't become an auntie, I'm sure I could think of more!
So ... I'm going to give a lecture ... appreciate what and who you have in your life, it is all so precious and fragile and you don't know how long you will have it. Tell those you love, that you love them as often as you can and be gentle with them. Don't worry about what you don't have, most of it is unimportant. Do the things that make you happy.
Lecture over, now I am going to prepare for the dinner party I'm holding tonight and do what my friend would want ... I'm going to smile, laugh, have a drink with friends and appreciate that I have them. Then I am going to hold my fiance close and tell him how much I love him.
Laura - you were a very special person who has touched my life very deeply. I admire your dignity and bravery in facing your illness and I hope you rest in the peace you truly deserve. No more pain, sweetheart.
Saturday, April 3, 2010
Happy Easter
So, lots of catching up to do!!
My boyfriend is fine after his 'food poisoning' episode! Although, we have just noticed that the local pharmacy messed up one of his prescriptions. They gave him x4 the strength dosage that he should have had! He only noticed because he has just started a second course and the tablets are different - I think I will be paying them a visit soon. Fortunately he is fine but it could have been very serious.
I finally got to the bottom of my mother's comments about the tiara! It appears to have stemmed from my father who has been banging on to her about me not wearing a wedding dress! It all came out last week when they were over and I mentioned in passing to my father that my mother and I were going looking at dresses the next day. He looked at me in utter horror and said 'you're not going to be wearing a wedding dress at your age'. He is adamant that I am too old at 44 to wear a wedding dress and I should be looking at a suit or a 'costume' - God only knows what that means, but according to my mum that's what they called a fancy outfit in the 50s!! He is totally horrified!
Anyway, my mum and I went dress shopping the next day and had a lovely time. I only tried on three but it has given me a lot to think about. I may well end up with something completely different to what I was expecting.
Bertie has been a little unpredictable - although he has now settled down somewhat. Thank God, as I had another embarrassing episode whilst eating out last Sunday. I had sausage and mash which I thought was fairly safe but something got stuck and it came back up before I was able to get to the ladies. Fortunately, I had a paper napkin on hand and had my back to the rest of the room but it is not pleasant. I think I have to readjust my food-head as I have had a lot of similar episodes recently (all at home!).
It is lovely having a long weekend, I was only back at work for four days but I really felt in the need of the weekend - more upheaval at work has been announced! Fortunately, I am not directly affected but there are people in my wider team who have been put at risk of redundancy and it was a massive shock. Still, I have a short week next week and then the week after I am in Liverpool on a course for three days - Salford Quays here I come!!
My boyfriend is fine after his 'food poisoning' episode! Although, we have just noticed that the local pharmacy messed up one of his prescriptions. They gave him x4 the strength dosage that he should have had! He only noticed because he has just started a second course and the tablets are different - I think I will be paying them a visit soon. Fortunately he is fine but it could have been very serious.
I finally got to the bottom of my mother's comments about the tiara! It appears to have stemmed from my father who has been banging on to her about me not wearing a wedding dress! It all came out last week when they were over and I mentioned in passing to my father that my mother and I were going looking at dresses the next day. He looked at me in utter horror and said 'you're not going to be wearing a wedding dress at your age'. He is adamant that I am too old at 44 to wear a wedding dress and I should be looking at a suit or a 'costume' - God only knows what that means, but according to my mum that's what they called a fancy outfit in the 50s!! He is totally horrified!
Anyway, my mum and I went dress shopping the next day and had a lovely time. I only tried on three but it has given me a lot to think about. I may well end up with something completely different to what I was expecting.
Bertie has been a little unpredictable - although he has now settled down somewhat. Thank God, as I had another embarrassing episode whilst eating out last Sunday. I had sausage and mash which I thought was fairly safe but something got stuck and it came back up before I was able to get to the ladies. Fortunately, I had a paper napkin on hand and had my back to the rest of the room but it is not pleasant. I think I have to readjust my food-head as I have had a lot of similar episodes recently (all at home!).
It is lovely having a long weekend, I was only back at work for four days but I really felt in the need of the weekend - more upheaval at work has been announced! Fortunately, I am not directly affected but there are people in my wider team who have been put at risk of redundancy and it was a massive shock. Still, I have a short week next week and then the week after I am in Liverpool on a course for three days - Salford Quays here I come!!
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
It's just all good news...!!!
My other half is much better now. My mum has assured me that it wasn't the chicken as it was in the oven for over an hour and it was chicken legs not a whole one! So I am not feeling quite so guilty!
My weight has gone down by another pound - whoppee!!! Mind you, I am still not managing to eat very comfortably so it hasn't exactly been a painless loss but I'm happy!!
I have a wedding dress consultation on Friday morning - just me and my mum!! It is way too early to make any proper decisions but it will be lovely to try some on and get some ideas. I've never tried a wedding dress on in my life - how exciting!!
I have found out that you can get Wedding trainers (sneakers for any American readers) which will be fantastic - due to my disability I can only wear supportive lace up shoes, nothing dainty and not a hope in hell of wearing any type of heel. I was worrying about what I might wear as I wanted to feel special. We saw some at the wedding fayre but they were a bit plain so I thought I'd do an internet search. It seems that they are very popular in the States so I might either order some nearer the time or even have a bash at decorating some myself.
We also have an appointment to view our first choice venue on 21st April - have to wait that long to get a day when there isn't a wedding on. I have a feeling that it will be too expensive but hey-ho!
My weight has gone down by another pound - whoppee!!! Mind you, I am still not managing to eat very comfortably so it hasn't exactly been a painless loss but I'm happy!!
I have a wedding dress consultation on Friday morning - just me and my mum!! It is way too early to make any proper decisions but it will be lovely to try some on and get some ideas. I've never tried a wedding dress on in my life - how exciting!!
I have found out that you can get Wedding trainers (sneakers for any American readers) which will be fantastic - due to my disability I can only wear supportive lace up shoes, nothing dainty and not a hope in hell of wearing any type of heel. I was worrying about what I might wear as I wanted to feel special. We saw some at the wedding fayre but they were a bit plain so I thought I'd do an internet search. It seems that they are very popular in the States so I might either order some nearer the time or even have a bash at decorating some myself.
We also have an appointment to view our first choice venue on 21st April - have to wait that long to get a day when there isn't a wedding on. I have a feeling that it will be too expensive but hey-ho!
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Some good news and some not so good news!
The good news is that the weight has stayed down and is even looking like it is flirting with going down even more!! Also, I am wearing a top I bought ages ago but thought was a bit tight - my other half told me it looks fine and he is pretty direct with feedback!
The not so good news is that I may have given him food poisoning by accident. We had a chicken dish from Delia's summer collection last night, it was yummy but he thought the chicken was a bit pink (it had been in the oven for over an hour!). He was fine until after he ate breakfast and has since been sick - he is lying down at the moment - whoops!!!
The not so good news is that I may have given him food poisoning by accident. We had a chicken dish from Delia's summer collection last night, it was yummy but he thought the chicken was a bit pink (it had been in the oven for over an hour!). He was fine until after he ate breakfast and has since been sick - he is lying down at the moment - whoops!!!
Monday, March 22, 2010
Finally, some good news!!
After a few difficult food days - which included me throwing my dinner up within 10 minutes - I have managed to lose some weight!! About time, I say!!
My weight has been a little up and down - not much but enough to annoy me! This morning it was down to the lowest so far so I am going to recorded it as encouragement to myself! It is not an easy way to lose it but at least I am seeing some results for my suffering!
I went to my first Wedding Fayre yesterday. It would be so easy to get caught up in the drama of the occasion! My mum couldn't come as they were away for the weekend so I went with my boyfriend's mum. My mum said she didn't mind but when I told her about it last night (after she asked me!) she really annoyed me. I mentioned that I tried on some tiaras. She seemed a bit taken back and then commented that she thought I was going for the sophisticated look and wasn't I a bit old for that!!! I know I am 44 but I look young for my age and this is my first and only wedding so I want to look special - was I a bit over sensitive to cry when I put the phone down?!! It didn't help when five minutes later in discussion about wedding dresses with my boyfriend - I mentioned that I didn't really want a sleeveless/strapless dress (all you seem to see now are bodice type dresses) as I have a thing about my bingo wings - he said well you can always have a shawl...!!! I now think everyone must see me as an old granny who shouldn't wear a tiara and needs to wrap up in a shawl (I'm imagining something crotcheted!!).
My weight has been a little up and down - not much but enough to annoy me! This morning it was down to the lowest so far so I am going to recorded it as encouragement to myself! It is not an easy way to lose it but at least I am seeing some results for my suffering!
I went to my first Wedding Fayre yesterday. It would be so easy to get caught up in the drama of the occasion! My mum couldn't come as they were away for the weekend so I went with my boyfriend's mum. My mum said she didn't mind but when I told her about it last night (after she asked me!) she really annoyed me. I mentioned that I tried on some tiaras. She seemed a bit taken back and then commented that she thought I was going for the sophisticated look and wasn't I a bit old for that!!! I know I am 44 but I look young for my age and this is my first and only wedding so I want to look special - was I a bit over sensitive to cry when I put the phone down?!! It didn't help when five minutes later in discussion about wedding dresses with my boyfriend - I mentioned that I didn't really want a sleeveless/strapless dress (all you seem to see now are bodice type dresses) as I have a thing about my bingo wings - he said well you can always have a shawl...!!! I now think everyone must see me as an old granny who shouldn't wear a tiara and needs to wrap up in a shawl (I'm imagining something crotcheted!!).
Friday, March 19, 2010
Like I'm not already stressed....!!!
Bertie has now conspired against me along with the dysfunctional body! I woke up this morning with the familiar feeling of a too tight band. I've struggled to eat all day and had a sensation of acid reflux - NICE!!!
I would soooooooo love a glass of wine and some chocolate but I know if I try, I'm going to REALLY regret it!!
Still, look on the bright side, I'm on annual leave this coming week - BLISS!!
I would soooooooo love a glass of wine and some chocolate but I know if I try, I'm going to REALLY regret it!!
Still, look on the bright side, I'm on annual leave this coming week - BLISS!!
Thursday, March 18, 2010
2-0 to the dysfunctional body
Yes, sadly I am not pregnant again. The hospital have confirmed that I am still not ovulating so I've had to increase the dose.
I'm feeling a bit down as I think I'm chasing dreams that will never happen - even if I got pregnant there are a lot of risks due to my age. I feel I'm being silly and a bit selfish. My boyfriend is, as usual, being amazingly supportive - I'm so lucky really, perhaps it's time to appreciate what I have and stop dreaming.
Sorry if this is a bit depressing, I'll stop wallowing soon and get back to normal.
Saturday, March 13, 2010
Oh dear ...
My good intentions, once again, did not come to pass! My week did not go according to plan at all!
I only had Wednesday night to myself, I had to go food shopping on Thursday night with my boyfriend's mother and then I had a hairdressers appointment last night. Both nights I only got in the door about 10 minutes before my boyfriend which mean I didn't get any uninterupted time on the laptop!
He is at work now but when he comes home, he starts a fortnight's holiday! Still, I am pretty excited as I have booked a week off for his second week which will be lovely. I'm hoping to be able to get some wedding stuff done. I will have to grab time on the laptop as and when.
My band is now back to normal although the weight is fluctuating slightly. I'm having good days and bad days but I am feeling really well and I think my face is looking thinner.
I only had Wednesday night to myself, I had to go food shopping on Thursday night with my boyfriend's mother and then I had a hairdressers appointment last night. Both nights I only got in the door about 10 minutes before my boyfriend which mean I didn't get any uninterupted time on the laptop!
He is at work now but when he comes home, he starts a fortnight's holiday! Still, I am pretty excited as I have booked a week off for his second week which will be lovely. I'm hoping to be able to get some wedding stuff done. I will have to grab time on the laptop as and when.
My band is now back to normal although the weight is fluctuating slightly. I'm having good days and bad days but I am feeling really well and I think my face is looking thinner.
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Peace at last!!!
For the first time in ages, I have the laptop and the house to myself!!! This means I can post in comfort without screwing my eyes up to try to read the mobile phone screen! I'll try to make the most of it this week as my boyfriend (or should I now say fiance!!) is only working this week and is then off for two weeks and then two weeks of earlies so I won't get this chance again for about five weeks!
Bertie has settled down somewhat although I do still struggle sometimes. The weight went off, looked like it was going on again and has then come off again so I don't know what to make of it!
Work is hideously busy, I am managing my first Employment Tribunal claim which is a great opportunity for me but very full on!! The last four weeks have just romped around, I can't believe how quickly they are going.
My dad is recovering very well from his knee replacement. It has been four weeks today, he is walking really well and even started driving again. It is great to see him getting around without the pain.
We have finally got onto proper broadband again. We've had it a week and it is total bliss after the mobile broadband which was soooooooooo slow!!
Does anyone reading this have any knowledge of dog behaviour??? We are concerned about our Lab cross Daisy who has just turned 7. She seems fine, in so much as she is eating and drinking as normal. She still enjoys playing games and going for walks. However, for the last two weeks or so she has taken to disappearing upstairs to her basket on an evening instead of snuggling up on the sofa with us which she normally does. It is weird as she is snuggled next to me right now but if my boyfriend came back she would disappear and she does the same if my boyfriend is here with her their own. It is almost as though she feels like a gooseberry!! Anyone got any thoughts??
Still no firm plans in place for the wedding yet, I just can't wait to be able to start planning. It might be a nice distraction if the fertility treatment doesn't work.
Well, I'm off to get some dinner, will try to post again while I have this golden window!!!
Bertie has settled down somewhat although I do still struggle sometimes. The weight went off, looked like it was going on again and has then come off again so I don't know what to make of it!
Work is hideously busy, I am managing my first Employment Tribunal claim which is a great opportunity for me but very full on!! The last four weeks have just romped around, I can't believe how quickly they are going.
My dad is recovering very well from his knee replacement. It has been four weeks today, he is walking really well and even started driving again. It is great to see him getting around without the pain.
We have finally got onto proper broadband again. We've had it a week and it is total bliss after the mobile broadband which was soooooooooo slow!!
Does anyone reading this have any knowledge of dog behaviour??? We are concerned about our Lab cross Daisy who has just turned 7. She seems fine, in so much as she is eating and drinking as normal. She still enjoys playing games and going for walks. However, for the last two weeks or so she has taken to disappearing upstairs to her basket on an evening instead of snuggling up on the sofa with us which she normally does. It is weird as she is snuggled next to me right now but if my boyfriend came back she would disappear and she does the same if my boyfriend is here with her their own. It is almost as though she feels like a gooseberry!! Anyone got any thoughts??
Still no firm plans in place for the wedding yet, I just can't wait to be able to start planning. It might be a nice distraction if the fertility treatment doesn't work.
Well, I'm off to get some dinner, will try to post again while I have this golden window!!!
Sunday, February 28, 2010
Go Bertie!
It's been painful but worth it! My weight loss had virtually ground to a halt and I was losing and gaining the same few pounds but I've got rid of them plus another one!! Will update my ticker when I can get on the laptop.
Friday, February 26, 2010
It's not funny!!!
I don't believe it!! I've just written a long post but lost it when I tried to upload it!
I'm tired and not sure I can remember everything I wrote but basically I was moaning that although Bertie has loosened slightly, I am still struggling. I'm not too worried as I am able to keep most things down, particularly drinks so I don't think he has slipped but it is a bit frustrating.
I went out with some friends last night and was dreading it as I was sure I wouldn't be able to eat. I know I couldn't manage much meat or anything too dense so I picked my food very, very carefully! I had lasagne which is a real safe bet as it is soft with minced meat which is easier to digest. To my surprise, I was able to eat it which was bliss as I hadn't had much to eat since Tuesday. I followed that with Tiramisu which I knew would practically slide down. It was lush but I couldn't eat it all - how empowering to leave some pudding!!
My main concern is that my glass of chilled white is not going down. I've had it for about two and a half hours and I haven't quite finished it. It is tasting acidic which is a big worry - I changed to white when red started to be acidic. I hope this is a temporary situation, I'm not sure I could cope with life without wine!!!
Still, in all fairness, I think Bertie is just doing his job. I am a bit puzzled that the tightness has suddenly increased for no apparent reason but I suppose I should be grateful, it is like getting a free fill!!
I'm tired and not sure I can remember everything I wrote but basically I was moaning that although Bertie has loosened slightly, I am still struggling. I'm not too worried as I am able to keep most things down, particularly drinks so I don't think he has slipped but it is a bit frustrating.
I went out with some friends last night and was dreading it as I was sure I wouldn't be able to eat. I know I couldn't manage much meat or anything too dense so I picked my food very, very carefully! I had lasagne which is a real safe bet as it is soft with minced meat which is easier to digest. To my surprise, I was able to eat it which was bliss as I hadn't had much to eat since Tuesday. I followed that with Tiramisu which I knew would practically slide down. It was lush but I couldn't eat it all - how empowering to leave some pudding!!
My main concern is that my glass of chilled white is not going down. I've had it for about two and a half hours and I haven't quite finished it. It is tasting acidic which is a big worry - I changed to white when red started to be acidic. I hope this is a temporary situation, I'm not sure I could cope with life without wine!!!
Still, in all fairness, I think Bertie is just doing his job. I am a bit puzzled that the tightness has suddenly increased for no apparent reason but I suppose I should be grateful, it is like getting a free fill!!
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Bertie - you're a brute!
I'm not sure what is going on but Bertie is not a happy chappie! I woke up early this morning with a heavy feeling in my chest which has not gone away. Bertie feels really tight. I've had two hot drinks to try and loosen him up but to no avail. Consequently, all I've managed to eat so far today is a yogurt and a few bites of a really yummy wrap - how frustrating!
I think something might be stuck as I had problems with my dinner last night. If it doesn't improve I'll give the bariatric nurse a call - after I've shifted a few pounds of course!!
Saturday, February 20, 2010
Better luck next time...
Well, my first cycle of fertility treatment didn't work. I suppose it was a big expectation. We will just have to keep trying!
We have started looking at possible wedding venues which is quite exciting but we can't make any real plans yet just in case the treatment works! I don't want to waddle down the aisle - well, any more than I would normally!
Work has been crazy these last two weeks, I'm so glad it's the weekend. We have no plans today so I expect to be chilling out! Tomorrow we are going to see a good friend of mine who I don't get to see of enough. They have got a rescue dog since I last saw her so we're going to get the dogs introduced and then have lunch - yum!
Bertie is being awful at the moment, I'm really struggling at times. The scales don't reflect it but a lot of people have commented so something must be going on.
We went to a meeting in the village on Monday about the village institute. I am such a soft touch, I somehow ended up on the committee! Still it should help us get to know some of our neighbours. Monday's meeting was quite hilarious, there were times when i thought we'd stumbled onto the set of The Vicar of Dibley! Should make for interesting committee meetings!! All good fun!
We have started looking at possible wedding venues which is quite exciting but we can't make any real plans yet just in case the treatment works! I don't want to waddle down the aisle - well, any more than I would normally!
Work has been crazy these last two weeks, I'm so glad it's the weekend. We have no plans today so I expect to be chilling out! Tomorrow we are going to see a good friend of mine who I don't get to see of enough. They have got a rescue dog since I last saw her so we're going to get the dogs introduced and then have lunch - yum!
Bertie is being awful at the moment, I'm really struggling at times. The scales don't reflect it but a lot of people have commented so something must be going on.
We went to a meeting in the village on Monday about the village institute. I am such a soft touch, I somehow ended up on the committee! Still it should help us get to know some of our neighbours. Monday's meeting was quite hilarious, there were times when i thought we'd stumbled onto the set of The Vicar of Dibley! Should make for interesting committee meetings!! All good fun!
Sunday, February 14, 2010
Happy Valentine's Day
Well, I'm still resorting to mobile posting as I just don't seem to get any time at home on my own to post in peace!
Work has been full on this week, lots of naughty people including some having sex in the stationery cupboard - there are some cases that make it worth all the stress!
My dad had his knee replaced on Tuesday so I've been going in to visit him a lot - all went well and he is now home.
So it's been a tough week. Still I had a great facial and manicure yesterday so I feel good and not ashamed of showing off my ring!
Hope you are spending the day with the one you love! we're off to look at a potential wedding venue...!
Work has been full on this week, lots of naughty people including some having sex in the stationery cupboard - there are some cases that make it worth all the stress!
My dad had his knee replaced on Tuesday so I've been going in to visit him a lot - all went well and he is now home.
So it's been a tough week. Still I had a great facial and manicure yesterday so I feel good and not ashamed of showing off my ring!
Hope you are spending the day with the one you love! we're off to look at a potential wedding venue...!
Saturday, February 6, 2010
Foiled again!
Well, my plan to post properly this week was thwarted by my boyfriend failing his medical for work and being signed off for two weeks!! This mobile posting is great but it is on a tiny touch screen so very fiddly!
I can't believe how quick the week went. It's flashed by in a blurr or should I say dazzle? All I seemed to do all week was flash the bling!
Excitement seems to be good for the figure as the weight is showing signs of moving again - at last!
Must dash, got shopping to do and got to get to the hairdressers and my eyes are going cross eyed with this screen!
Monday, February 1, 2010
Very exciting!!!
Just a quick post to tell you that I got engaged at the weekend! I'm so excited. Will do a full post later in the week - when I stop grinning like a mad woman!
Saturday, January 30, 2010
Whohoo!!
I did it!! OMG - I am a bonafide technophile!!!
Hopefully this now means that I will be able to post more freely even when my boyfriend is working mornings.
I'm feeling better from my cold but I am now a year older - it was my birthday on Wednesday. The worst thing was, my period was late and I thought I might be pregnant but then it started on my birthday - the irony!! Still, I have now started to take the Clomid so fingers crossed it might help.
Other than that, nothing much exciting has happened. My boyfriend is taking me out for my birthday tonight which should be lovely.
Look out for my short and sweet mobile posts!
Hopefully this now means that I will be able to post more freely even when my boyfriend is working mornings.
I'm feeling better from my cold but I am now a year older - it was my birthday on Wednesday. The worst thing was, my period was late and I thought I might be pregnant but then it started on my birthday - the irony!! Still, I have now started to take the Clomid so fingers crossed it might help.
Other than that, nothing much exciting has happened. My boyfriend is taking me out for my birthday tonight which should be lovely.
Look out for my short and sweet mobile posts!
Saturday, January 23, 2010
Poorly sick!!
Yes, I am still alive but I have the lurgy!! I didn't really stand a chance as my boyfriend had it and the girl I sit next to at work had it so I was bound to succumb! I am sitting in the lounge in my dressing gown feeling very sorry for myself.
It has been a busy old time, I had an appointment at the fertility clinic last week. I really wasn't expecting anything after the disaster in Bristol in October. However, I was pleasantly surprised that they have given me fertility drugs to ensure I ovulate. He gave me Clomid - if anyone knows anything about what it's like to take, I'd be really interested to hear their experiences. I haven't taken it yet as I have to wait for the right point in the cycle but I am very excited that it might work. Of course the risk is that I could have a multiple pregnancy or at my age the risks of problems with the baby are higher but we'll cross those bridges if and when we come to them.
I've upgraded my mobile phone and I am still trying to work out how it all works as it is very different. Anyway, it has internet capability so I am hoping to be able to post from my mobile. I will work it out, eventually, but this could be fab as I could post during my lunch hours and when I get a spare minute. I'll keep you posted - pardon the pun!
It has been a busy old time, I had an appointment at the fertility clinic last week. I really wasn't expecting anything after the disaster in Bristol in October. However, I was pleasantly surprised that they have given me fertility drugs to ensure I ovulate. He gave me Clomid - if anyone knows anything about what it's like to take, I'd be really interested to hear their experiences. I haven't taken it yet as I have to wait for the right point in the cycle but I am very excited that it might work. Of course the risk is that I could have a multiple pregnancy or at my age the risks of problems with the baby are higher but we'll cross those bridges if and when we come to them.
I've upgraded my mobile phone and I am still trying to work out how it all works as it is very different. Anyway, it has internet capability so I am hoping to be able to post from my mobile. I will work it out, eventually, but this could be fab as I could post during my lunch hours and when I get a spare minute. I'll keep you posted - pardon the pun!
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Snow watch ...
Well, it's been an interesting week! Much as I love the snow, I'll be glad to see the back of it. It is a long time since I can remember the snow staying around for so long, usually we have a few days and then it's gone. I couldn't get to work last Wednesday but managed to get in on Thursday and Friday although I needed to use a wheelchair to get to and from the car at work. This is against my feelings really but it is safer and means I don't get stressed at the thought of going in during the bad weather. I am now watching the snow come down again, wondering whether I will be able to get to work tomorrow - fingers crossed (but I'm not saying what I'm hoping for!!).
Work seems to be a bit better at the moment, I'm almost enjoying it! There is lots of change happening, more restructures but at least this time I'm watching rather than participating.
The weight is steady at the moment, I'm sure it will sort itself out soon.
I can't believe it is our third anniversary today, where did that time go. This time three years ago, my boyfriend and I were sat in a pizza restaurant being all polite to each other - how times change!!
Will try to keep up my posting targets but my boyfriend is off this week and then on earlies for two weeks so it is difficult to post without questions!!
Work seems to be a bit better at the moment, I'm almost enjoying it! There is lots of change happening, more restructures but at least this time I'm watching rather than participating.
The weight is steady at the moment, I'm sure it will sort itself out soon.
I can't believe it is our third anniversary today, where did that time go. This time three years ago, my boyfriend and I were sat in a pizza restaurant being all polite to each other - how times change!!
Will try to keep up my posting targets but my boyfriend is off this week and then on earlies for two weeks so it is difficult to post without questions!!
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
Half a snow day!!
It's been a funny old day, I went into work but keeping an eye on the weather as we were predicted heavy snow. I sent my boyfriend a text asking him to call me if it started snowing at home. He rang at about 12.30 to say it was snowing quite heavily and the lane and our driveway were quite covered. It was still okay in Bristol so I thought I'd wait, then it started to snow quite heavily in Bristol and others were leaving work. I wasn't sure what to do but talking to some colleagues decided that we should go home. The snow was sporadic coming home, in some places quite heavy and none at all in others.
I got home and it had stopped - I felt a right fraud! My poor car share had to come home as well, I feel awful!
Still, they are predicting a heavy fall tonight so will have to see how things go in the morning. I did bring some work home to do but I would have stayed if I'd known it was going to stop.
I got home and it had stopped - I felt a right fraud! My poor car share had to come home as well, I feel awful!
Still, they are predicting a heavy fall tonight so will have to see how things go in the morning. I did bring some work home to do but I would have stayed if I'd known it was going to stop.
Monday, January 4, 2010
Back to normality ...
So the tree is gone, the cards are down and Christmas is over for another year ...
Well, it has been an interesting day! Back to work, what a rude awakening I got in the car and the temperature gauge was saying -6 degrees, I've never seen such a low reading. All the way to work it didn't get much higher than -3! It caused a problem as the washer jets had frozen over and my windscreen was filthy, I managed to get to work and fortunately they had defrosted sufficiently by the time I came to leave. Will have to see whether the promised snow will make an appearance.
I had a very interesting phone call this evening, from the gynaecologist in Bristol! We have had considerable trouble in getting the results of my boyfriend's sperm analysis - the one that was submitted in OCTOBER!!! We finally got the results from our GP the day before Christmas Eve and it was rather depressing as he told my boyfriend that he was only 25% fertile which made me think we were chasing an impossible dream. Anyway, the gynaecologist called tonight to apologise for the problems and she explained the results in much more detail and was able to correct the GPs incorrect interpretation. Basically, in a normal sample 85% of the sperm are abnormal and only 15% are normal - a bit weird if you ask me!! Anyway, in my boyfriend's sample only 3% were normal and the GP deduced that this meant he was only 25% fertile. What he did not take into account was that a normal sample is expected to 20million sperm per ml, whereas my boyfriend's sample had 87million per ml!!! So whilst his normal percentage was low this was compensated by the quantity produced. Overall, they expect a normal sample to have a mean average of 1.5million viable sperm per ml and my boyfriends was 1.1million which is not far short of normal. She went on to say that in her experience she believes a further analysis would produce a completely normal result.
She gave me some suggestions on treatments that could be helpful if we decided to go privately. I didn't mention my appointment next week but it gives me some options to discuss with them. She has also suggested a suitable website for information. So I am feeling much happier. It was really nice to talk to her, she was very friendly and approachable. My boyfriend was very chuffed when I told him as I think he was putting a brave face on it - you know what they are like about things like that!!
Anyway, that is a nice start to the year - not pregnant but the chance is still there, however slim!!
Well, it has been an interesting day! Back to work, what a rude awakening I got in the car and the temperature gauge was saying -6 degrees, I've never seen such a low reading. All the way to work it didn't get much higher than -3! It caused a problem as the washer jets had frozen over and my windscreen was filthy, I managed to get to work and fortunately they had defrosted sufficiently by the time I came to leave. Will have to see whether the promised snow will make an appearance.
I had a very interesting phone call this evening, from the gynaecologist in Bristol! We have had considerable trouble in getting the results of my boyfriend's sperm analysis - the one that was submitted in OCTOBER!!! We finally got the results from our GP the day before Christmas Eve and it was rather depressing as he told my boyfriend that he was only 25% fertile which made me think we were chasing an impossible dream. Anyway, the gynaecologist called tonight to apologise for the problems and she explained the results in much more detail and was able to correct the GPs incorrect interpretation. Basically, in a normal sample 85% of the sperm are abnormal and only 15% are normal - a bit weird if you ask me!! Anyway, in my boyfriend's sample only 3% were normal and the GP deduced that this meant he was only 25% fertile. What he did not take into account was that a normal sample is expected to 20million sperm per ml, whereas my boyfriend's sample had 87million per ml!!! So whilst his normal percentage was low this was compensated by the quantity produced. Overall, they expect a normal sample to have a mean average of 1.5million viable sperm per ml and my boyfriends was 1.1million which is not far short of normal. She went on to say that in her experience she believes a further analysis would produce a completely normal result.
She gave me some suggestions on treatments that could be helpful if we decided to go privately. I didn't mention my appointment next week but it gives me some options to discuss with them. She has also suggested a suitable website for information. So I am feeling much happier. It was really nice to talk to her, she was very friendly and approachable. My boyfriend was very chuffed when I told him as I think he was putting a brave face on it - you know what they are like about things like that!!
Anyway, that is a nice start to the year - not pregnant but the chance is still there, however slim!!
Saturday, January 2, 2010
So far, so good!
Feeling good that I am able to get two consecutive posts!
I had a lovely lazy day yesterday, it was very decadent. I did absolutely nothing all day and didn't feel a bit guilty (until my boyfriend got home!!).
I've been out and about today, had my legs waxed (oh joy!) and then did some food shopping. It was horrible having to think about planning for food next week at work - I haven't done a full week for ages!
The weight has dropped again - I'm so much more chilled about it these days! My beautician commented today on how well the weightloss was going. She'd noticed that my legs were much smaller which is brilliant as that is where I have been carrying an awful lot of it - partly due to my underlying condition - they were seriously very very bad.
We're starting to plan our holiday in Australia this year. My brother lives in Perth and I haven't seen him for four years - he's never met my boyfriend. We haven't decided yet when we will go, it will either be in September or, if we can get the flights at a reasonable price, Christmas - that would be fab!!
I had a lovely lazy day yesterday, it was very decadent. I did absolutely nothing all day and didn't feel a bit guilty (until my boyfriend got home!!).
I've been out and about today, had my legs waxed (oh joy!) and then did some food shopping. It was horrible having to think about planning for food next week at work - I haven't done a full week for ages!
The weight has dropped again - I'm so much more chilled about it these days! My beautician commented today on how well the weightloss was going. She'd noticed that my legs were much smaller which is brilliant as that is where I have been carrying an awful lot of it - partly due to my underlying condition - they were seriously very very bad.
We're starting to plan our holiday in Australia this year. My brother lives in Perth and I haven't seen him for four years - he's never met my boyfriend. We haven't decided yet when we will go, it will either be in September or, if we can get the flights at a reasonable price, Christmas - that would be fab!!
Friday, January 1, 2010
Whohoo 2010!!!
I'm starting 2010 as I hope to go on - with a post!!
We had a lovely quiet start to the year. I went to see our friends in the evening which was great fun, they have a two and a half year old who is just adorable. I was playing with her for ages. I then got home about 9.30 and my boyfriend was already there so we caught up on some programmes we had recorded with a nice glass of red. It was so nice after such a hectic Christmas. Its just a shame that my boyfriend has to work today.
My weight has gone up slightly over Christmas - it was only a pound but then this morning it was three!! I'm not panicked because I know Bertie will sort it!
I think 2010 is going to be very interesting workwise and homewise. First off, I have an appointment to see another gynaecologist on 14th Jan here in Newport. This referral is specifically for fertility issues - I'm not expecting much after the issues in Bristol but we'll see what they say. If it is meant to be it will happen, if not I must be grateful for all the good things that I have in my life and make the most of them.
We had a lovely quiet start to the year. I went to see our friends in the evening which was great fun, they have a two and a half year old who is just adorable. I was playing with her for ages. I then got home about 9.30 and my boyfriend was already there so we caught up on some programmes we had recorded with a nice glass of red. It was so nice after such a hectic Christmas. Its just a shame that my boyfriend has to work today.
My weight has gone up slightly over Christmas - it was only a pound but then this morning it was three!! I'm not panicked because I know Bertie will sort it!
I think 2010 is going to be very interesting workwise and homewise. First off, I have an appointment to see another gynaecologist on 14th Jan here in Newport. This referral is specifically for fertility issues - I'm not expecting much after the issues in Bristol but we'll see what they say. If it is meant to be it will happen, if not I must be grateful for all the good things that I have in my life and make the most of them.
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